Tags: rambling

lulz//sadcat

I put this in an email.

I don't believe in leagues as some people suggest. I think there are some people that can't date because they're too different on some subjects or they have the same faults so it would be a bad idea... but there is no such thing as "they're too beautiful for you". I think that's a cruel way to think about it and I think it abolishes hope, which is bad.
Oz//luck

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Did I cure my block? I don't know. I don't think so. I finished something that I should have finished forever ago. And that's how I feel about everything. It's not even really finished, you know? I just finished a part of something.

I actually think to myself, I'm gonna finish writing this - then I'll rewrite it. At the pace I'm going, by the time I start rewriting it, I'll be in my 40's.

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?
KITH//kev in blood

Danielle gave me a nostalgia bomb. It blew up in my face.

TODAY'S GONNA BE MOTHER FUCKING CRAFT DAY.
And oh my god, it's hard to write when I'm sitting here remembering this album from when I was like 14.

Oh that's right. Craft day. I have things to make. Shouldn't I be writing? I should.

I had a dream that made no sense and I don't want to get into it but it was a sex dream, but it didn't fully involve me. I'm kind of bothered by any dream I have that doesn't involve me.
Since when do I not think about myself.

I'm kind of a self-centered ass.

How do I know I won't get distracted later on by something else? Actually, what am I talking about. I'm already distracted right now. Music usually doesn't pull my attention this much but if it's this old, I can't help it.
Shamwow!!

Been away for awhile

My thoughts make me sick sometimes. Not sick as in, the thoughts are sick themselves but like - they're so cutesy and out of my control.
And I've got to stop being self conscious about the stuff I write. But I always feel like there's someone over my shoulder. Even if he's not really there.

There are things that bug me now that I used to tell myself, "I'm not going to let that get to me". What happened?

Purples

I'm pleased as a peach with this layout.

I made a list of stuff I have to get when my check comes.
I didn't get to catch up on my stuff because I stayed up last night. So I'm gonna do that tonight but also watch movies with Rich.

This happens to me a lot. I give myself things to do and then I go to do them and I end up doing other things.
Should I just be more organized or something?

Oh and we're doing laundry so that takes up about 30 minutes of my time.

Maybe the answer to all my questions is to become an OCD freak.
Videodrome//cancers

Dreams

I don't even have dreams anymore. I just have thoughts, that I go through. Like last night while I was sleeping, I had a literal thought of, it'd be great if we got more weed.

I did have a short dream about being a criminal. It was fun.
But there are rarely stories playing in my head like they used to.