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My First Time Doing Heroine.

I didn't really do heroine. I'd be dead if I did, I think. My body can barely handle whatever that was the doctor gave me.

Long story short because I am sleepy still:
I went to the hospital today. In an ambulance. My chest had these sharp pains that went all the way through to my back. My left also had these exact same pains.
There didn't seem to be anything wrong... unless I get these pains again? But I got prescribed some meds; so if it does happen again, I'll take those and go from there. But today nothing really got rid of the pain better than what just gave me something completely different.
Something that was pretty much the equivalent of H.



I was really freaked out when the EMTs came to get me in our trailer here in Shasta Lake. I got to ride in the back of the ambulance though, which was kind of fun... but they all had a hard time finding a good vein to give me some IV.

Guy said I had spidery veins for a young woman. (Shit, what does that say?)


Obviously, they got me an IV which they didn't use until last minute. Eee. And this isn't a hospital review or anything. I don't really care about what they did, to some extent.

There were some points where I felt like I was going to die in there. And I got a little paranoid about "what if I have to go in for surgery" and "I do not have any family members".
But hey, they let Rich in to spend the entire time with me - then I signed some forms saying he could be there because why the fuck shouldn't he?


I look so heavenly here. Why didn't I just die right then? Well let me tell you - I think I damn well could have. They gave me some IV shit that put me through fucking hell.
At first it was the regular "I feel really lightheaded" stuff that I'm used to getting at hospitals. But then... oh my god. I started over heating and I couldn't stay still. Then I'd pass out and wake up and pass out and wake up again.

This was so exhausting.


Eventually I begged them for water - and they gave me a huge glass that I wasn't expecting. That cooled me down for like two seconds, and I just continued my charades of rolling around like a drug addict coming down from something.

REALLY. SUCKED.

But then I got to leave after awhile - in a nice little wheel chair ride. It wasn't that fun though because the nausea started to set in. So we went to a local grocery called Ralley's which I love. I went right to the Deli to get some mac n' cheese... and before I could even buy it - you guessed it.
I threw up. I had a little medical bag, but still, I threw up while walking, so I missed a little. Got most of it in the bag, but some got on the floor. rofl.

And get this. The only thing I had up to this point was that water from the hospital. So that is what I threw up. AND IT STILL HAD ICE IN IT. WHAT IS THAT ABOUT?

I threw up again right after that not missin the bag. So I had a seat while Rich paid for my food. Because I also got my check today - yay.

So that was my day... heh.
Tags: dying, photogenics, sickley
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